Killing Time
So here I am, sitting on my bed using my new laptop which was a graduation present which I am so thrilled about...
But actually, I have been really bored. My job as a shoesalesperson (is that supposed to be one word?) is a flop since I have practically no hours and therefore torment the life out of my poor mother. So I am wondering - is there any volunteer work I can do? Does anyone know of some sort of a job opening I could get in a hurry? Entertainment? Anything?
Becuase if this is the way my summer is going to be, just send me to school now. Not that I'm complaining or anything.
I used to dream of this kind of freedom, but unfortunately, I daily learn the lesson that life is never what it seems. The problem with me is that I always fill guilty when I have free time. I feel like I don't deserve it. I never was good at "redeeming time" anyway; I always sit around thinking of all the things I could or should do and never actually do any of them. I think I lack discipline, but only when nothing is required of me. When I have to do something, I can force myself to, but when I don't, what's the point? But this cycle makes me miserable...maybe this is a spiritual thing.
All I know is that I am bored. HELP. Maybe I'll write that novel that has been stewing in my brain for years. I have no idea what I would write about. Maybe I'll just try and something will come out.
Maybe I'll just go to bed.
But actually, I have been really bored. My job as a shoesalesperson (is that supposed to be one word?) is a flop since I have practically no hours and therefore torment the life out of my poor mother. So I am wondering - is there any volunteer work I can do? Does anyone know of some sort of a job opening I could get in a hurry? Entertainment? Anything?
Becuase if this is the way my summer is going to be, just send me to school now. Not that I'm complaining or anything.
I used to dream of this kind of freedom, but unfortunately, I daily learn the lesson that life is never what it seems. The problem with me is that I always fill guilty when I have free time. I feel like I don't deserve it. I never was good at "redeeming time" anyway; I always sit around thinking of all the things I could or should do and never actually do any of them. I think I lack discipline, but only when nothing is required of me. When I have to do something, I can force myself to, but when I don't, what's the point? But this cycle makes me miserable...maybe this is a spiritual thing.
All I know is that I am bored. HELP. Maybe I'll write that novel that has been stewing in my brain for years. I have no idea what I would write about. Maybe I'll just try and something will come out.
Maybe I'll just go to bed.
posted by Lea @ 10:46 PM
6 Comments:
At June 21, 2006 12:55 PM,
Elisabeth said…
this might seem dumb, but going to bed has been a great cop-out for me late at night...I always want to get some reading done, but never have time. I do at night, but just go to bed instead. What a weird existence. I feel that i'm killing time because I'm needed around the house, but I'm trying to find a job, and there's no more school, and no summer work. Why is this a problem??? I don't know. This is like my mid-life crisis...I'm falling apart. Wow, this is getting morbid. SUMMER'S HERE!!! THIS IS THE DAY THE LORD HAS MADE, LET US REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT!!!!!!!
At June 24, 2006 9:46 PM,
Anonymous said…
I'm sure I can find some volunteer work around our house for you two young ladies if you're that bored! :-) --Mrs. T
At June 25, 2006 9:24 PM,
Elisabeth said…
if you need help, just call!!! I actually think that I just got a job, so things are speeding up a bit. Not to mention the fact that I have only seven weeks left before college. That is sooooooo scary. I'm not even joking.
At June 26, 2006 11:20 AM,
Anonymous said…
That's great that you think you just got a job. If you did, what will you be doing? And if not, what are you hoping to do? --Mrs. T
At June 27, 2006 1:35 PM,
Elisabeth said…
I got it!!!! I work at the sports and fitness edge in Essex with the preschool. contrary to the common opinion, I actually enjoy working with the daycare. it's fun, and I'm with people all the time. (granted, they're under three feet tall with a limited vocabulary, but they are people none-the-less : )) I only work about two and 1/2 hours each day, but it is a good amount of time. it's also flexible!! I can rejoice because I get to go to the whole youthretreat! YEAH
At June 27, 2006 1:35 PM,
Elisabeth said…
p.s. sorry that was probably a lot more info than you ever wanted to know...
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